Thursday, August 18, 2011

Indifference

I wanted to update with something profound and exciting. . .but I have nothing.  Nothing at all. 

I think I'm entering the indifferent phase of grieving my losses and dealing with the hell that has become trying to have a baby for us...I just don't have very strong feelings either way.  I'm not angry anymore, I'm not debilitated with sadness.  I'm not happy or "over" my struggles; I'm just not anything.


I am focusing on our next cycle and nervous as hell at this point.  I was cleared to start trying right away so that's what we did although my cycle has thrown me for a thousand loops this time around.  So now we wait, we hope and we pray.



2 comments:

Sarah said...

Are we related?? Maybe we just seem to be going through the same emotional cycle around the same time because our losses were close.

I am also focusing on the next cycle and I am doing my best to not obsess as I have so many other times in the past and relax, but it is not working.

I hope this journey finally goes your way!

Jessica R said...

I think that probably has something to do with it...I'm glad I'm not the only one feeling sort of "meh" about the whole thing. Good luck to us both :)